This is not a fun topic to write about, but it is one that I think needs to be shared. I've been very public with the relationship between my fiancé and I from the very beginning, all the way to when we got engaged at Star Wars Celebration Anaheim, and to now. Unfortunately, he decided to end our relationship this week. The feeling was not mutual, so I was completely devastated when I heard his decision. However, I have found that Star Wars continues to be my comfort during hard times, and I wanted to share that with you.


While I could have laid in bed for a week with a gallon of ice cream and sobbed my eyes out, I did not want to take that path. Since I heard this upsetting news, I've been determined to handle this with as much poise and strength as I can muster up.

The first thing I did to seek comfort was call upon my friends- my Star Wars family. I've met so many wonderful people through Star Wars, whether it be through the internet, at conventions, or in other situations. I received hundreds of heartfelt messages on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram from friends that I love dearly to followers I've never met, expressing their encouragement for me. This was incredibly humbling. My friend Calli even drew me this precious image of Sabine and Rey, two of my favorite characters in the Star Wars universe, sharing a hug. It brought tears to my eyes, but in the best way. Speaking of tears, yes I cried. I cried a lot. However, only half of the tears I shed were out of sheer disappointment and sadness. The other half was out of complete love and gratefulness to everyone who took a moment out of their day to check on me. It meant so much.


The other thing that brought me comfort was thinking about a favorite Star Wars character of mine- Ahsoka Tano. How could Ahsoka help me through this difficult time? Well, her story is similar to mine. Remember when the Jedi council betrayed Ahsoka when she was framed for murder in season five of The Clone Wars? I'm sure she felt very heartbroken and confused at that time. She probably cried a lot too. She probably didn't know what to do after she left the Jedi Order, just as I'm feeling now. But the important thing to remember is that Ahsoka came out on top. She became even stronger through these struggles and used them as learning experiences. As I'm dealing with my own heartbreak, I'm holding Ahsoka's story close to my heart and remembering that I will come out of this stronger than I was before. 

So I will leave you with this...


When things go wrong, when your lifelong plans are changed, or if someone close to you rejects you- don't lose hope. Ever. Out of darkness always comes light and everything will be okay. Be grateful for the happy times you had and don't let betrayal make you bitter. Everything happens for a reason, and don't close your mind to all the amazing things that are waiting for you right around the corner.